goodness! lonely rants make be feel tiny bit better.
“why do i want to hid this side of me?” cuz i feel it shows an ugly side of me.
“why is your rants public?” it’s not like anyone will read this and think “oh it’s that girl i know.” this is irrelevant to others so it won’t matter in the end.
I don’t feel that anyone knows me. except for the select few who see me most days.
“can anyone help?” they could. but it embarrasses me for some reason.
“do you feel alone?” no i know i am not alone. i have friends and family who love me. and I also know that i am not alone in thinking this way. I just haven’t met anyone who is like me in my current state.
“does typing and asking questions to answer yourself help you in some way?” yes. surprisingly. this makes me feel more organized. it makes me feel like my thoughts are more organized this way.
“…………………..” i’m so tired now. i have a test tomorrow. i can’t think anymore. thank goodness.
